Matrics Life
Hi its been a long long time since my last post kan. so i decided to blogging again sebab i have no one to talk to. so, here i am to tell my stories (apparently im telling myself my own problem here but who cares).
so first thing first. my matrics life is sucks. i've been thru a very tough life here. im not telling you the whole matrics life is sucks. it just some part that make u wanna kill urself.
oh uhm, a few weeks ago i've been scolded by miss jaja which is the most furious lecturer in physics unit. she's screamed n yelled at me like hell. she thought that i am fucking stupid. but the reality is i just dont remember how to draw the solenoid...... she said that i tak pernah dapat markah bagus, i perempuan pemalas and i tak ingat apa lagi. she dont know what was i two sems before. she cant see my hardworks in physics. i try to make her proud of me but she seems like dont even care. sedih juga bila rasa macam di downgraded because she once tell the whole class what she expected us to achieve in her subject for pspm nanti. and guess what, she said "saya rasa fathihah boleh dapat b+, untuk dapat a susah sikitlah" no one know what i exactly feel that time. i sedih like shit. i break into pieces but no one knows. ya allah, apa dosa i. sometimes whenever i went through a hard day, i always fikir balik what have i done before this sampai jadi macamni. apa dosa i. we somehow terlepas pandang yang whatever perlakuan yg kita buat, the Almighty knows them all. and we dont realize that all things yang happen kadang kadang sbb allah nak uji kita. kadang kadang kita banyak buat maksiat but allah still give us excellent result. that is istidraj. allah nak tgk kita makin dekat or makin jauh dari dia. i selalu berdoa so that allah jauhkan i dari istidraj. so i decided to keep silent in her class. i tak berani langsung nak eye contact with her. and everytime before her class started, i sumpah takut nervous shaking bodo. but i know deep inside she is a really loving teacher ๐
since the pspm is just im two weeks, for sure the lectures and student berhempas pulas and struggle kan. but i dont really agree if cikgu marah if we tak faham certain topics. its normal la and if u keep pushing us like that, u get nothing. we might rebel. cikgu tak boleh expect yg student faham semua benda that quick. some student is slow learner. they need time to digest what they learn (i know there not much time left). bukannya kami tak usaha. let us prove u we can success.
soooo thats it for tonight bye
: Nur Fathihah Suraya
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