" I'm gonna rise like a queen "

 Nur Fathihah Suraya binti Azlan
 24 years old
 7 September 1998
 Malaysia
 Bachelor in Psychology of Industrial and Organizational. Currently working on HR field
 I have faith in whatever i do
 Bad at cooking :(
 I have goals and I'll make sure to achieve them
 Family is my priority
 Hot tempered sometimes
 I have fear of cockroaches
 Not your decent sweet girl
 We cant be friend if you dont get my jokes
 Wish me luck for degree life

hi so today i want to share a poem about one sided love. is it poem or just words? nah i am not sure either hahah. i literally found the poem years ago when i was having a crush at someone but only decided to share it today. so here it is one sided love is not love it is torture it is waiting for something that might never happen it is looking at someone who does not see you it is looking at your phone hoping they would text you or call you as they call someone else
one sided love is not love it is battlefield you are battling your emotions you are battling your feelings you are battling reality you are battling everything people are telling you you are battling your own intuition your gut your logic your heart it is a battle you cannot win a war you cannot stop it is losing over and over again
one sided love is not love it is heartbreak it is one person giving and the other one is taking it is one person loving and the other not even moved it is one person willing to do anything to make it works and  the other is not even thinking about it
one sided love is not love it is self destruction it is questioning your self-worth every night it is constantly wondering why you are not enough, why you never get picked, why you are never the chosen one it is feeling like you will never be loved because no one was able to love you back no one you wanted truly wanted you
one sided love is not love it is a crush it is infatuation it is obsession
i actually crying reading this for the first time (2 years ago) because it really hit me hard. i had a crush before (a serious one) and turn out that he knew about me crushing on him. i thought things will be good but no its notttt. he unfollowed me on instagram, did not followed back on twitter and blocked me on facebook tiberr (i never added him as friend or wtv). i was so sad back then like i was broken teruk because i was being rejected that way. he could easily tell me that he does not feel the same way and i will be okay but he used harsh way. nahhhh its okay btw because i boleh terima kenyataan now and i never feel like having a boyfriend for this time being actually even though sometimes i feel like i need someone to talk to but nevermind im good ya im good.  to be honest, i wanna say sorry to someone that i have hurt before because of this crush. i left you to kejar this crush, never thought about your feelings and everything. now, karma hits me already. no one wants me in the first place hahaha no im still good (kot)